Hi guys! How are you? How's your week going?
1) "Well, I guess I'm not going jogging", I said this morning when I woke up, in the massive understatement of the day. It's been pouuuuuring out today. Alllll day. I totally forgot about that part when I set my alarm to get up and go jogging this morning. Whoops. Can I at least get credit for good intentions? Probably not.
2) So the thing I posted yesterday about me being baffled by my friends- that was all started when my best friend told me she and her husband are thinking about having another baby. Me: YOU'RE DOING WHAT NOW?! I love my best friend, and I'm happy for her, and the almost three year old girl is fantastic. But I honestly pictured us doing all those big life milestones together. Setttling down, getting married, having a baby, etc. But she's so far ahead of the curve, its bananas. It's right for her, but for me, I'm like light years away from that whole scene. Makes me feel kind of left out. Weren't we supposed to do that stuff together?
3) And speaking of babies, here's a side effect of going to a super-ultra-mega-Christian high school:
I am now the last girl in my high school class not to be engaged/married/have kids or some combination of the above. I mean, obviously it a skewed sample and doesn't represent most people my age. But just this week, four of the girls from my graduating class announced they're expecting. My class is shockingly fertile, all at once for some reason. And it's not like there's something in the water, because at this point everyone is scattered all across the country. Christians, man! They need to quit having so damn many babies.
4) My aunt got me a Ninja chopper for my birthday. Have you seen those things? I am super excited to use it to make dinner tonight. I feel like I spend my entire life chopping vegetables. (What did you do today, Amanda? Oh nothing, just chopped some vegetables for like six hours, how about you?)
5) I just bought a ticket to go see Social Distortion next Friday night, but it looks like I'll be going by myself. Seems like all my local friends/acquaintances aren't into classic punk music. A travesty, I tell you!
6) Remember how I posted about my aunt not listening to me, and all the stuff that's been going on with them and my cousin? Well I finally got fed up last night and called her and confronted her and told her how I really feel. It was SO scary to actually do, but oh my gosh, you guys, the RELIEF. I feel so much better. I come from a family where we avoid conflict at all costs. If we have a problem with someone, we complain to another family member, but never ever ever actually confront the person. So basically we spend our whole lives not being ourselves with the person bothering us and then slowly build up giant walls of resentment and anger. Because that makes sense. For that is the WASP way, you see. ANYWAY. I finally did it and it was terrifying at the time but it went about as well as could be expected. She seemed to receive what I had to say, and I was actually able to be honest. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my chest. I'm so proud of me. Yay for mature emotional growth!
7) I'm donating blood this Saturday. I've had my blood drawn a zillionty times for medical stuff, but I've never actually donated, and I've always felt a little guilty about it. Because the whole thing makes me all squeamish. Bleahhhh. I don't even know for sure what blood type I am. I'm assuming O? Of some kind? It's giving me the willies just thinking about it. I'm sure it will be fine though. Ick.
8) This weekend we're going to get some strawberry and blueberry bushes and maybe a mint plant to put in the yard. Greg is coming to visit and he's already agreed to do the physical labor of planting in exchange for me baking some cookies. Sounds like a plan.
9) Hmm, what else? Let's see. I've been working 8 hour days instead of my usual six to make up for when I've been out sick. So now I'm basically in bed every night by 9:30 or 10 because I'm officially old and if I don't get enough sleep I completely fall apart as a human being.
10) Did I tell you guys I'm doing a 5k at the end of July? Yup! My best friend Mindy and I and a few of our friends are going to do it July 27th in Boston. It's one of those Color Runs, where you wear white clothes and they spray you with color every K, and by the time you get to the end you're all tie-dyed. Looks super fun. I actually bought one of those iphone armbands so I could wear it when I went jogging. And it's a pretty pearl pink color! And I got an app for Couch to 5k which helps you train. Soooooo, I should probably get on that because it's in like a month and a half. BUT I TOTALLY INTENDED TO GO JOGGING THIS MORNING. IT'S ALL THE RAIN'S FAULT.
11) And an extra one! You lucky people you! So last night I saw the episode of Doctor Who where the 9th Doctor, Christopher Eccleston, transforms into the 10th Doctor, David Tennant. Gak, so emotional!!! I'm still reeling. That show has the unique ability to make you feel strong conflicting/opposite emotions all at once, like emotional whiplash. Or like powerful storytelling based PMS. Or something. Too many emotions!!
There were quite a few in my class, including myself, who have remained single and didn't have kids. Granted, we didn't attend a christian school...
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you spoke your mind to your aunt. Even if she didn't listen to you, at least you got it out there and off your chest. *hugs*
Thanks Rei. I'm glad too. :)
DeleteMarriage is so passé
ReplyDeleteI totally agree. I can't understand how anyone does it. They'd have to be married to the same person for THEIR WHOLE LIVES. That's so long!! I only genuinely like maybe four or five people in the entire world. I sometimes don't even like myself that much. Marriage seems impossible.
ReplyDeleteMy group of friends only started to settle down into 'permanentish' relationships 10 years ago. Some got married, most did their own version. Most started about 5 years ago. I am 41 and most of my friends have kids in kindergarten -- not junior high. We went into wildly different directions, all of us, and have scattered across Canada, the States, and in a couple of cases, Australia, India, and parts of South America.
ReplyDeleteI am really proud of you for confronting your aunt. Really really REALLY super proud. That's a huge thing -- a good thing -- a healthy thing!
If I could go to a colour run, I totally would. I have wanted to since I first heard of them. Have fun for me, too!
Since when do strawberries grow on bushes? Did I miss something. Not that I would object - less bending.
ReplyDeleteHere is the thing. Christians aren't super fertile--ALL women in their 20s are so...Do you really wanna do there? One word: Triplets!
ReplyDeleteJust kidding. I wish I had had kids. I would have had tons. I started thinking about it in high school, but didn't trust any man to ride it out that long with a woman that was kept like that.
By college, I just wanted the kid and thought my sick sick sick family would help. It was actually their pressure for me to have a kid that let me know something was wrong. No way they were giving me good advice.
Now at 41 I am too old (although HustleMan tried to talk about it with me) and I don't have the type of support system to do it right. I can flake out on my writing, education, career, social life--but the kid thing I would kinda want to do right or not at all.